Aug 06 2007

What Life Tilt?!?

Published by at 10:19 pm under Personal

Yes I’ve finally found a reason
I don’t need an excuse
I’ve got this time on my hands
You are the one to abuse
–Days of the New

A few friends have asked about my life tilt post I made a short while ago, and I appreciate the concern. I’m not an attention whore, but sometimes it’s nice to know people are listening.

I didn’t get into much detail, but most everything thing in my life is going fairly well. Things with the family, while busy, have been going well. Amy and I aren’t getting divorced or anything, and in fact, I should be very content with my life. Well, I’m not. I think most of it stems from work and when something takes up 40 hours a week (or 50 lately) and you aren’t happy with it, it’s gonna carry over into other parts of your life.

Solution? Well, I’m not going to be quitting jobs or anything and I’m not unhappy at work because I feel I’m underpaid and overworked or anything. I’m just not happy with where I’m at professionally at the moment or where I fit in with the company. Without getting into to much detail, I’m not in a position at my current job to grow professionally which I need to be happy. Work isn’t interesting me and I don’t enjoy it. On the flip side of that, I get paid reasonably and have worked at my job long enough to get a decent amount of other benefits. So unless a grand opportunity flutters it’s pretty little wings into my lap and whisks me off to programmer heaven, I will probably be piloting my loser cruiser for a while.

In a way, that’s ok. It’s good for my family as long as I can keep the disdain for my day to day life under control. So what are my solutions? Put more energy and effort into things that don’t relate to my work. I will try and not work weekends, just do what I need to do to get by, then go home. Work will become a means to a paycheck. Not an ideal situation, but I think then I can direct some energy to things that I enjoy more. Hell, that will probably even look better for me from the companies perspective. They are all about content employees that just show up and get their work done. A model corporate citizen.

So, what is going to get my attention? There have been a lot of things that I would like to do that should keep my interest in all facets of my life. I started reading more again. And not just crap on the web either, stuff like books. Have you heard of those? I have a few portraits I’ve also promised people and the kids would enjoy doing some drawing with me. I’ve thought about trying to donate some time to an open source development project, but that would just be a matter of finding the right project. I’ve also been getting motivated to working on the house as well. I’ve been more and more convinced that the house we have just isn’t big enough for our family as is evident by the overflowing rooms of stuff (read junk). We could live perfectly fine in our house, but if I’m gonna be stuck in Bismarck, I might as well take advantage of the forgiving housing market. And of course, poker. I am going to try and play more poker than I have in the past. So far this month, that hasn’t been the case, but I will try to find more time. I also have a project with a friend that I’m trying to get live shortly and will divulge more information about that once it’s ready.

So, you are a owner of a successful business and want to know if the open position you have is just the right butterfly I’m looking for? Well, my ideal job would be a flexible job with hours that has many different responsibilities. I am eager to be free of the constraints of my business casual dress code and eager to find an open environment. So, if you are looking for an IT person to do miscellaneous IT tasks with flexible work hours and dress code policies, then set me up. My phone is waiting for your ring.

I’ve also determined I need to try and get more active and find somewhat of a normal schedule. Last week I took a bunch of miscellaneous time off from work to just recoup, and it was nice.  But I started keeping odd hours and it definitely wouldn’t work for how I need to get by in life right now. Maybe some day, but not now. So I need on a normal schedule. I’ve also determined that the boob tube is just a life suck for me at the moment. Sure, I love the Law & Order Saturday marathons just as much as the next guy, but for some reason, being lazy like that only breads more lazyiness and hasn’t been good for me. Besides, it’s not like I haven’t seen all the episodes already. So I will be cutting the amount of time watching TV down a bit. Well, at least until football starts. :)

So there you have it. Not a revamp of my life, but more a reallocation of my energy. Just shifting my life priorities around a bit and hopefully that will make me a happier person, which I haven’t been lately.


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2 Responses to “What Life Tilt?!?”

  1. Royon 06 Aug 2007 at 11:55 pm


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